This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed
To be now
Gonna let the light shine on me
Now I've found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
i really don't know how to start this post, but i feel that i had to type it all out here, at least, to feel better... just came back from my aunt's house as i was helping her with an errant, and on the way, i saw my aunt's son( my cousin) and he told me, ah po don have much time left... these words just wired to my mind, and i was at that moment unable to speak... it all happened frm the day before, my ah po was a heavy drinker cause of the lacking of attention in the house, thinking of drinking just to numb herself...and she got so drunk she falled twice the day before and yesterday, she ended up unable to stand, walk or even turn on the bed... therefore my aunt decided to send her to the hospital my cousin was working at... at that moment my cousin told me she ahd little time left, i couldn't think of an answer and only said 'okay, i will tell mummy' now i am at home, i really don't know how i shld blurt this news to her.... my grandfather just passed away 2months ago and now this... life isn't so strong isn't it... i just don't know why me a 17 year old has to face two tragedies together this year... all i hope for now is that no bad news comes.........